The first part of the process is writing a grudge list, so-called by Bill Wilson in the Big Book.
As mentioned in the earlier notes, in working on the grudge list, I write the names, nothing more. I don’t ask why a name comes to mind; I just write it down. It is sufficient that the name comes to mind. As I sit with pen and paper, I let my mind flow in a stream of consciousness. I let the names tumble out, I know I will get to the ‘why’ of the name on my grudge list later; for now, I just let the names flow in a brain dump. Write a couple of names and get the juices started, then let it roll. I don’t spend hours and hours, just a few minutes a day. Once I start, it flows out. Find a system that works for you and start it.
working the steps
AA is not a spectator sport
A great share at a meeting – “Drinking is not a spectator sport, and neither is AA.”
I cannot enjoy another person’s drinking, neither can I grow spiritually with someone else’s Program. I have to do it myself and do my own work. I cannot be a spectator and expect to grow.